Hmmmm. Well, I am in the middle of them again. I don’t want to be here. I am trying my best to get out of here. This place we all find ourselves every so often … whether it be enough dollars to make the payment, or inspiration to write the final draft, or gumption to make the deadline with that project … the tenseness, the adrenalin, the anxiety of “crunch times”. YUCK!!
Okay, so I am all about finding the best in every situation and now is no different. You know, some people actually work terrifically well as proverbial procrastinators – putting off something they have to do until the last minute is what gets their brains working at their optimal capacity! Seriously. We have a friend who is a university professor and he functions just this way … told us that it took years for him to accept that this was just the way he was made and once he did everyone around him relaxed – including himself.
But, I don’t think this describes me … I think I usually like slow, methodical organization of thoughts and feelings to be how I lay out my lessons and writings … maybe that is why I am all in a tizzy. I am anxious to have all that’s in my heart and mind’s eye ‘out there’ now! I want this newest book to be on its site and I want this website finished. All this time-consuming effort is well, time-consuming. I know it has to be done and eventually it all will pay off. This ‘beginning’ is taking way too long! There are hiccups! There are pitfalls! There is drama. But I have a dream … and although it is unfolding, it is certainly taking time. For me, impatience is hard to deal with, but as I deal with it, I continue to grow stronger and more determined and that is a good thing. Someday I may have someone to do this busy tech work for me. In the meantime, I remind myself, even though it is ‘crunch time’ it’ll be alright in the long run. The yuckie stuff always, always works out some way or other, lessons are learned and … reality check here: the pleasure of creating is lots of fun!
But, please, let me whine one more time: truly, I just want this all done yesterday! There now, that’s better …
Deep breath, Robin, relax, smile and here we go again!
It is good to be alive. Yes, indeed!
Tags: adventure, BEGINNINGS!, development, Growth, staying-strong, VISION
